Why I Stopped Waiting on God and Started Believing as God
I used to think I was being obedient by waiting.
Waiting for a sign.
Waiting for a blessing.
Waiting for God to “move.”
Waiting for circumstances to shift first so I could finally breathe.
And I called that faith.
But what I eventually realized was this:
I wasn’t waiting on God.
I was waiting on permission.
Permission to feel worthy.
Permission to feel confident.
Permission to make a different decision.
Permission to believe my life could actually change.
I kept asking God to do something…
But deep down, I was afraid to be something.
I thought faith was sitting still and hoping.
But faith — real faith — is identity.
The Big Shift
One day, I heard something that stopped me in my tracks:
“You don’t pray to God.
You pray from the God within you.”
It hit me like truth I had known all my life but never recognized:
God wasn’t outside.
God wasn’t separate.
God wasn’t withholding anything from me.
He was already in me.
So if God was in me…
Why was I begging Him to show up?
Why was I acting like I had no power?
Why was I waiting to be rescued, when the rescue was already breathing inside me?
That’s when the shift happened:
I stopped asking,
“God, when will my life change?”
And I started asking,
“Who do I need to be to live the change I’m praying for?”
Believing as God Means…
Not arrogance.
Not ego.
Not “I’m my own god.”
No.
It means:
Believing from the same truth, power, and identity God placed in me before I ever had a name.
It means:
Instead of praying for peace → I become the woman who is already peaceful.
Instead of praying for love → I become the woman who already carries love.
Instead of praying for overflow → I become the woman who expects overflow.
I stopped waiting on external circumstances,
and began embodying the reality I desired in my thoughts, emotions, and imagination.
That’s where the shift lives.
Not in the outside world.
But in the inner one.
The Evidence Came Later
When I changed how I saw myself…
My life followed.
Not instantly.
Not overnight.
But consistently.
Gently.
Surely.
The breakthroughs that once felt out of reach started feeling natural.
Why?
Because my identity changed —
and life always aligns with the identity you live from.
So Why Am I Sharing This?
Because if you are tired, frustrated, silently hurting, or just spiritually exhausted…
I want you to know:
You are not waiting on God.
You are remembering the God within you.
Your life changes the moment you stop trying to get power
and start living from the truth that you are already powerful.
You don’t have to earn it.
You don’t have to prove it.
You don’t have to struggle your way into it.
You only have to become the woman who believes it.
And that’s what this blog is about:
Not performing faith.
But embodying divinity.
Not waiting.
But becoming.
Your turn to reflect:
(You can even journal this if you want.)
Where have you been waiting…
when God has already given you permission to become?
Take your time.
Your shift starts there.
— Roxie
Becoming Her Divine Self
